Well, this is the end of my childhood. I have graduated from high school, I have turned 18, and I have no idea what happened to all my friends. Everything and everyone is so different from the way I had expected them to be/grown accustomed to. I don't even understand. And I know I can say whatever I want because nobody reads Xangas anymore. So I found out yesterday that I'm going on a road trip with Thourson sometime to take some landscape pictures with his new awesome camera. And then I might try to turn some of them into paintings. I'm really glad I'm friends with Scott again. I've spent a lot of time by myself lately, thinking about how friendships work. Basically, you have two types of friends. The kind that you find yourself hanging out with to pass time, and the kind that you've grown up with that you trust with almost everything. There's only a handful of the second type, and sometimes you don't even realize who they actually are. Another thing about friendship is that you are more replacable than you think. As much as you expect certain people to always be there for you, they cannot. And, especially if you are not their priority, they will replace you easily for many stupid reasons. It's best not to get overly attached to one person or another. You can pour your whole heart and 100% of your loyalty into someone, and a lot of times, they will still betray you when they find a reason to. That's not true for everybody, but it is something that I've witnessed. And as things change, a lot people also disappear from your life. So it's really important that you make the best of what little time you have with everyone, because who knows? You just might never see them again. It disappoints me that things can't just happen in your favor. A lot of other things I've realized throughout senior year disappoint me as well. Some things I've been looking forward to experiencing since middle school leave a lot to be desired. While the actual experience itself is quite nice really, you come to expect it to always be there and never change. Well, it does change, and it does leave you for someone else. For no apparent reason too. I'm afraid that when I leave next Thursday, I will return to a completely different world. Just like in Arthur, when Buster goes around the world with his dad, he comes home to a completely changed world because all his friends have gotten used to him not being there and have found ways to replace him. It only takes a month of no communication to forget someone. Schools out forever. Good night, and good luck. | 
